Saturday, November 27, 2010

Life is not a Dress Rehearsal...or is it?

"God is a comedian, playing to an audience too afraid to laugh." ~ Voltaire


First, let me just say it is never a good idea to spill water on your laptop. Ever. I don't know why PC manufacturers don't find a way to make water-proof keyboards, considering all the people in homes and offices who drink coffee/tea/Singapore Slings at their workstation....well, actually I suppose it's because THEY MAKE MORE MONEY that way, but...how thoughtless.

Anyway, if you're like me and happen to knock over a bamboo-filled vase while trying to swat a perversely friendly fly, you want to know your PC can survive a few drops of liquid. Even now, months later, the keyboard gets all possessed and starts typing 'TTTT' on a never-ending loop until I shut it down. Guess that'll teach me not to drink and type.

Another reason I haven't posted is that I didn't have anything interesting to say, so don't get your hopes up too high, but, I recently experienced a second of insanity enlightenment that left me laughing out loud in surprise. Some of you know I can get really heavy in a finger-pointing sort of way with my former Mormon community, and I've realized that I took my religious practice very, very serious, as in, too serious. And then expected everyone "should", too. And then got all judgey when they toppled off my pedestal (really it wasn't THAT high, but still).

It drove me nuts when people didn't honor their word, slipped in integrity, or failed to show up to do something they committed to do, even allowing for the occasional slacker/bad hair day/sugar over-consumption, which by the way, is rampant in this community because they don't drink--a shame, considering it's a much more enjoyable way to get that sugar high. Much more enjoyable than the local popular fetish for green Jell-O.

Because I took it all so seriously, it sucked the fun and humanity right out of the journey, especially for me. My expectations could suck the fun right out of being Buddhist/Atheist/Muslim, not that they're bastions of frivolity anyway, but in my defense, temple-going Mormons are admonished not to indulge in 'loud laughter' (one of my favorite indulgences; just ask anyone) which made me slightly paranoid, given my irreverent nature.

Truly the apple doesn't fall far from the McIintosh tree--and we know how devoted to ancestral details Mormons are. One of my grandmothers--and she wasn't even Mormon--used to pray and weep over the departed at the local cemetery in her spare time, unless I'm remembering the family stories wrong.

One of my dear Mormon friends hangs out at pioneer cemeteries when life gets overwhelming (and since she has seven kids, I imagine that's fairly often) reading the headstones of the dearly departed whose sufferings make her feel infinitely better about her troubles. Who can complain when some epidemic wiped out a faithful pioneer woman's ten children? Or rampaging Indians took Sister Mary Elizabeth Ellswater's husband and firstborn and burned down the spacious one-room log cabin? What's a foreclosure/no healthcare/totaling the family car in comparison to the sufferings of old?

Like Grandma, I was almost sackcloth-and-ashes serious, to the point where religion became joyless, and I expected too much of others and myself. Thankfully, this approach no longer works for me. I'm realizing that spiritually connecting is not just about attaining the ethereal, but embracing humanity as well. So while I may still occasionally take things too seriously (old habits die hard), lightening up is part of the practice today. A big part (no offense, Grandma).

Go Conan! Hindus are hip to enjoying a good laugh too.





Sunday, October 3, 2010

Watching Aloe Grow

Funny how things change.
 
Courtesy Arie Van De Graaff at mormoncartoonist.com

Sundays used to be a time of great stress, dressing up and corralling four kids and a husband to haul ourselves down to church for three hours of intense brainwashing gathering with our community in communion. Heh.

Not to mention running myself ragged in some calling or other dealing with actual PEOPLE outside my comfortable circle of family and friends. It's one of the downsides to being an introvert. I could write a small cupboard's worth of books on how-to-survive Planet Earth as an introvert in our relentlessly extroverted American culture (not to mention exhaustively social church).

Oh, why wasn't I born in some quiet British corner of the world to raise five cats and a luscious garden while sitting by a cozy fire, knitting mittens for orphans in a cozy stone cottage with a thatched roof covered in roses/hollyhocks/delphinium? (you see, this is the stuff of my dreams, not river-rafting the Colorado rapids or touring the pyramids with Tony Bourdain--well, not these days anyway).


Instead, I get to live the boring staid life right here, in our little condo--surrounded again, by PEOPLE who wake you up at ungodly hours blasting harp--yes, harp--music for some god-forsaken reason. Not that I don't totally enjoy a good harp concerto (I do, kinda) any more than the next person, just not when I'd rather enjoy a few more (please-oh-please) red-hot minutes with Vin Diesel in dreamland...wait, what was I saying? Oh, yes. In my Utah County neck of the woods, where no Christopher Robin resides, alas.


But at least I get to walk past my childrens' rooms, hearing their snores, and open the windows to let some Autumn birdsong in, and visit with my extended blog-family (that would be you) while waking up with a cup of lemongrass green tea and watching the aloe vera growing in the streaming morning sunlight.


No, we may not be saving the world one soul at a time, including ours, but then, it's enlightening to realize we never had to. Now go enjoy the rest of your Sunday in...

Monday, September 20, 2010

International Peace Day




I love how the world is so very, very big



or small, depending on your lens.



Your life is an album and each moment is a photo.



Are you enjoying the development?


Saturday, September 11, 2010

Be The Change You Want To See

On the Anniversary of September 11, here's a thought:



Tuesday, September 7, 2010

New Beginnings


August and September, while marking the end of summer, also herald new beginnings for me. I 'lost' two very special people during both who forever changed my life for the better. Each taught me about compassion and humor--two traits I cherish.

August marks the anniversary of the birth of my grandson who was placed for adoption. The last time I saw him he made me laugh and I will always remember his funny little antics, as well as the open and accepting ways of his heart. Children rock like that, don't they? May we all be inspired to be so innocently divine.

September marks the anniversary of the death of my only brother. Truly his own person, he walked through life with a mental handicap and still taught us who knew him volumes of character. He had a good heart, he was nice to people and animals (my gerbil comes to mind), he loved catalogs, Cheerios, car rides, and most of all; to laugh. Our photo albums are full of his smiles.

Although my relationship to both of these dear ones feels like it is ended, of course it isn't. Love knows no bounds, neither time nor space. There are new beginnings, lessons lived, memories undying, that keep us connected. Because of them I am reminded not to take any moment for granted... especially this one.

Leaving heartfelt thanks, hugs and kisses for you both ~ ॐ


Saturday, August 28, 2010

When Rainbows Come

It's been an eventful summer.
For all of us.
You, and I.
You've seen my photo posts;
words are elusive of late.


I've learned a few things
as I reflect
in the heart of the canyons here...


One,
that I have missed you.
I've visited your blogs and
tasted cups of love
and the touch of your hearts.
I'm glad to walk with you
as we travel together. 


Two,
that with the many storms facing us,
we are none of us alone. 



Third,
that sometimes
after a storm
comes the most beautiful rainbow.


Sometimes
even more than one.


There may or may not be pots of gold,
but the rainbows are gratifying enough.
And riding those rainbows
have brought incredible wild joy
and....

Saturday, August 7, 2010

Changes of Scenery

I don't know about you,
but this summer has brought with it 
much change and growth and love. 

Here are some of the ways summer refreshed me:

Flying high in sky...


Dipping into the sea...



Exploring new terrain...


Enjoying natural and man made art...


Absorbing colors...


Kicking back...


Outmaneuvering sharks...
(hint: shopping carts involved)


No, still not Nemo...


Smelling the hibiscus...(pink and peach)



Weathering the storms.


Remembering that life is beautiful.
Family and friends only a heartbeat away,
Connections and re-connections,
remembering how loved we are.
Feeling boundless gratitude and...